莓什麼大不了的

時光芢苒，一晃眼我已畢業一年多了，其中也換了一次工作。畢業前先回家鄉找工作，是對方打來叫我去面試的，雖然工作地點離家車程一小時，因為對於教養院的工作不排斥，也覺得對方的27K薪水，供午晚餐挺不錯的，七月一到馬上去報到。

教養院的工作很雜，主要和內部的溝通要有許多眉角，新人最菜、我又是耳根子軟的人，很快就被賦予許多額外的工作。小至院生穿衣，大至和銀行簽約。太多的內部溝通問題、太多人把工作丟給社工，做了三個月雖然試用期已過，但我已感到十分精疲力盡，於是開始上104找工作。在這段期間，除了跟一個大我一屆的前輩說之外，對其他人甚至連一絲絲想離職的話語都沒有提及。

在104上找到一份和社工工作性質類似的工作，看到有30人以上報名，不免開始擔心自己是否有能力被選上，我做了一張雙面列印的三折頁，以及一套自我介紹的台詞，台詞的順序是照著面試官會看到的順序來寫的，為了以防萬一我印了三份帶到公司，那天正好有三位面試官，好險有多做準備，不然肯定不會上。

在等待面試通知時，正好遇到主管說我們要來重新分配工作，當時的我還不敢跟主管提出我想離職的想法，只有暗示他，我不想那麼早分工，因為我擔心我的能力不及擔任一個可以獨當一面的社工。(我覺得若已分完工了，我會不敢提離職，這樣很對不起公司)主管並沒有看出我的異樣。還是照樣分配了工作。我和上面所提到的「大我一年的前輩」被分配到極度不公平的工作，而主管的工作非常輕鬆。

分工完一週，接到了新公司的錄取通知，但我當下開心不起來，因為覺得對舊公司好抱歉。閃光和爸爸一直給我打氣「你明明就很討厭這裡，幹嘛還不開心？」「有什麼好擔心的?離職最大」這句離職最大真的給我很大的鼓勵。

隔一天手裡握著離職單，但一直找不到適當的機會拿給主管，直到主管用不客氣的口吻問我XX你那個東西弄好沒?還沒嗎那什麼時候才要用?我深呼吸了一口氣，走向主管，拿著單子跟她說我要離職！她當場嚇到說不出話來，拿著我的單子去找院長談。講完的當下覺得心中的大石頭放下了，太爽了！

I know just how to whisper
我明白如何輕聲細語
And I know just how to cry
也明白如何哭喊
I know just where to find the answers
我知道哪裡可以找到答案
And I know just how to lie
也知道怎樣撒謊
I know just how to fake it
我知道如何捏造事實
And I know just how to scheme
也知道如何策劃陰謀
I know just when to face the truth
我明白何時該面對真相
And then I know just when to dream
然後，我明白何時該去作夢

And I know just where to touch you
我知道該觸摸你的哪裡
And I know just what to prove
也知道該證明什麼
I know when to pull you closer
我明白何時該將你拉近一點
And I know when to let you loose
也明白何時該放手
And I know the night is fading
我明白夜晚已盡
And I know the time's gonna fly
時間逐漸飛逝
And I'm never gonna tell you everything I've gotta tell you
而我絕不會告訴你任何該告訴你的事
But I know I've gotta give it a try
但我知道該試試看
And I know the roads to riches
我知道致富之道
And I know the ways to fame
也知道成名的捷徑
I know all the rules and then I know how to break'em
我清楚所有的遊戲規則，也知道如何打破規則
And I always know the name of the game
我總是知道遊戲的名稱

But I don't know how to leave you
但我不知道如何離開你
And I'll never let you fall
我永遠不會讓你跌倒
And I don't know how you do it
我不明白你是怎麼做到的
Making love out of nothing at all
讓愛一切成空
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
一切成空，一切都成空
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
一切成空，一切都成空
Out of nothing at all
一切成空
Making love out of nothing at all
讓愛一切成空

Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
每一次我看見你，所有的陽光
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
像波浪般流瀉過你的髮間
And every star in the sky
天上的每一顆星
Is taking aim at your eyes like a spotlight
都像聚光燈一樣對準了你的雙眼
The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
我的心跳，像是迷失的鼓
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
尋覓著和你一樣的節奏
You can take the darkness at the pit of the night
你可以從夜之坑洞中汲取黑暗
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright
將它轉化為燃燒著無盡光亮的信號燈
I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
而我必得追隨著它，因為我所知道的一切
Well, it's nothing 'till I give it to you
如果沒有給你的話，都是徒然

I can make the runner stumble
我能夠讓跑者摔倒
I can make the final block
我可以發動攻勢
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
也可以阻擋進攻，在哨聲響起之際
I can make all the stadiums rock
我能夠讓整個運動場沸騰起來
I can make tonight forever
我能夠讓今晚成為永恆
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
或者，我能讓它在黎明前消失
I can make you every promise that has ever been made
我能為你實現每一個許過的承諾
And I can make all your demons be gone
我能為你驅走所有的惡魔

But I'm never gonna make it without you
但是沒有你，我絕不會去做
Do you really wanna see me crawl
難道你真的要看我在地上爬
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
我絕對不會像你一樣
Making love out of nothing at all
讓愛一切成空
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
一切成空，一切都成空
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
一切成空，一切都成空
Out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
一切成空，一切都成空
Out of nothing at all
讓愛一切成空

歌詞來源：http://vicky-jen.myweb.hinet.net/Making%20love%20out%20nothing%20at%20all/69.htm

I’ve Never Been To Me(Charlene)

Artist:Charlene(夏琳)



Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life

You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife

I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do

But, I wish someone had talked to me

Like I wanna talk to you



Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run

I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun

But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free

I've been to paradise but I've never been to me



Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away

'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today

I can see so much of me still living in your eyes

Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies



Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while

I've sipped champagne on a yacht

I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got

I've been undressed by kings and

I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see

I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me



[spoken]

Hey, you know what paradise is

It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and

places as we'd like them to be

But you know what truth is

It's that little baby you're holding

it's that man you fought with this morning

The same one you're going to make love with tonight

That's truth, that's love



Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children

that might have made me complete

But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet

I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring

that costs too much to be free

Hey lady



I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)

But I've never been to me



(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)

I've been to paradise, never been to me

(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while

I've sipped champagne on a yacht)

I've been to paradise, never been to me

(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made

me complete)

I've been to paradise, never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)

I've been to paradise, never been to me